A Warrior Name. Himba Child.

This weekend me and the black bird went out to celebrate his 20th \m/ We dressed up, and partied the night away at Pir6, Charlies and Harveys (dancing on tables w00t w00t!)

Happy birthday Raven :3 <3

Anyways. Last night I was up talking to myself (as I always do. I know- call the men in white coats!! ;p ^^) and I was talking about my name, and how I appriciate it when people know it (very few people do) and how even my family doesent know it (only mom, perth and my brother does)
-And then I got to thinking about how few people would come to my funeral if I died and stuff, but I digress-
I have NEVER liked my birth name. NEVER.
I gave myself new names as soon as I could, Rufio, tøffe susi, Susi, Susi star, candygirl, omega, and so on.
Until Angst came and stuck with me at fifteen.
And now I have my changed name as well.

But my birth name, I dont like it. Can’t identify with it, or any other female name for that matter. I cant be compared to a girl..!
I feel like it’s insulting to compare me to anybody else- Im NOT just any GIRL!
I don’t WANT a name.

I wasn’t born “a girl”
I was BORN a WARRIOR.
And being placed in a god damned gender has held me in too strict a place to freely express what is within my soul.
It limits me. Feels like a restricition.

Im not a boy. Im not a girl. Im ME.
Im everything.
Maybe I dont even want a name at all.
(Maybe thats why I have so many..? Who knows…)

I want to be seen as something other than a name.
I want to be seen as me.
I want to be seen.

See who I am.